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today was filming day.
 
"My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time, I don't feel the same
My heart is beating in a different way
Been gone such a long time
Will you miss me?
When there's nothing to see?
 
Do you still believe?
In you and me?
Are we all we could be?
Is it meant to be?"
 
- Missing by The XX {https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=drdCkc3xBOc}
 
I have many a tag to fill.
 
& I shall. Just as soon as my sentence has been lifted & I have been given my Hedgehog back.
 
Sorry for my absence. I hope all is well with you.

I'm rebuilding my mind palace.
It doesn't belong solely to me anymore;
gotta make room.
A room, to be precise.
221C

I'm still alive
but in a very different life, let me tell you.
 
Here, have some Destiel.

I've sort of landed myself into some trouble again,
so I give you an old draft and an update: I may be
gone a short while until the dust settles. I'll reply
to any comments, PMs, and post what I've
finished of my new RP as soon as I can.

"She had a lover. His name was Quae Carcajou and they lived in a spirit world together, wandering the skies. But one of the spirits was jealous. Trickster wanted the Moon for himself. He told Quae Carcajou that the Moon had asked for flowers. He told him to come to our world and pick Her some wild roses. But Quae Carcajou didn’t know that once you leave the spirit world, you can never come back. Every night, he looks up in the sky and sees the Moon, crying her name. But he can never touch her again."
 
- Wolverine, X-Men Origins.
 
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I was tagged by @conceptualdreamer
 
1-Your masculine side.

[x] You love hoodies
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It’s hilarious when people get hurt
[x] Shopping is torture
[] Sad movies suck
[x] You own a car racing game
[x] You played with hot wheels cars as a kid.
[] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega.
[] You used to be obsessed with power rangers.
[x] You have watched sports on tv.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[] You go to your dad for advice.
[] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] You used to collect hockey cards.
[] Baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. [- I'm all for an orgy, actually.]
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[] Sports are fun
[x] You talk with food in your mouth.
[] You sleep with your socks on at night
[x] You have fished at least once
 
2-Your feminine side.

[] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.[- albeit rarely.]
[] You wear the color pink
[] You go to your mom to talk.
[] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like going to the mall [- going anywhere, rather]
[] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[] You like wearing jewelry.
[] You cried watching "The Notebook" [- I haven't seen the film.]
[] Dresses are a big part of your wardrobe
[] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] You don’t like the movie Star Wars
[x]You are/were in gymnastics. [- aged seven. Do tell me that counts...]
[] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[x] You care about what you look like. [- If the mood strikes me.]
[] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[]You like wearing high heel shoes.
[x] You used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] You like putting make-up on others.
[] You like being the star of everything.
 
3-Appearance.

[] I am shorter than 5′5″.
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. [- My scars are tricky fiends.]
[] I’ve had/have braces.
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[] I have more than two piercings.
[]I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.

4-Experiences

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[x] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I’ve been to a casino.
[] I’ve been skydiving.
[x] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [- Holy mother of God. That's all.]
[x] I’ve crashed a car.
[] I’ve been skiing.
[] I’ve been in a musical
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[] I’ve seen the northern lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[x] I’ve seen the rocky horror picture show
[x] I’ve eaten sushi.
[x] I’ve been snowboarding.

5-Relationships

[x] I’m single.
[] I’m in a relationship.
[] I’m engaged.
[x] I’m married.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[] I’ve gotten divorced.
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

6-Honesty/Crime

[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out
[x] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve ran a red light.
[x] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[x] I’ve been in a fist fight. [- & won. His face is healing nicely.]
[x] I’ve been arrested. [- see above.]

7-Death and suicide

[] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone/something dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
[x] I’ve planned my own suicide before
[] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

8- Random

[] I can sing well.
[] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant
[] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[] I don’t kill bugs
[] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person [- Don't make me laugh.]
[] I paid for a cell phone ring tone.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[1/2x] I care about grammar
[] I have “?”’s in my screen name.
[x] I’ve copied more than 30 cd’s in a day.
[] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[] I like martha stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes cause they’re funny
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an a in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider/cockroach in the room.
[x] I am ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
 
9-Extra
Write about what you do.
 
I survive to the best of my ability.
 
10-True or False(T=True.F=False.)
[T]- All my answers were 100% honest.
 
Tag 20 people. When responding to the tag, name the set "About Me" (I say to hell with that, if you have a better title in mind. Feel free.)
 
I've gone and change "boy side" and "girl side" as a matter of opinion. I hope you'll decide to keep the edit.
 
I apologize if any of the following don't like tags. Feel free to decline for whatever reason.
 
To those on this list with whom I haven't spoken yet, "Hello. I love you - 'cause creeper love is deeper love."
 
@thedreamingforest
@allisonnnnnnn
@frostfeather
@cultofsharon
@hollamika
@moytura
@starwarshobo
@areyouinwonderland
@katticusmac
@wolfchildsarah
@thegirlwithmanylovers
@mclovinn
@theroguebadger
@obliviate
@ladyoftheflowers
@fromdistantshores
@the-darks-deceiving
@alljuststoriesintheend
@cosmiccastaway
@teea94

They were summoned by the drinking -
by Christmas Eve:
our family
traditions
of dramatic acts of desperation.
Another time,
I was told to leave;
to ride into the wee,
the in-between
hours of the night
 
- We? Please.
Me.
He
she may tell to follow my lead.
But it is me when I leave;
me that fends off demons while
he
and she
separately slurp spirits -
summon these
as real or fake as they please
which feed and eat
and shutter “You”
 
- on another Christmas Eve,
because “that b*tch best be out
by morning”.
 
The knife beneath my pillow
has gone.
That which I’d believed
would never, ever leave it’s resting place
- “For defense”
 
“What against?”
 
There is nothing left beneath
my head, where it lays
pressurized here
despite and in spite of my near-fatal fear of
dancing silhouettes,
dancing,
dancing,
to the pulse that quakes my cracking chest
 
“For defense” -
tonight
it slays.
 
- Nay, these things don’t bleed.
They smell of, while refusing to seep
that sticky warm which fuels the rocking of my dying drum.
It clings
to these devilish fiends -
it clings to their digging hands.
But my potato dagger does little
but trip across the black
of the Eve
of even more traditions.
 
I see,
I see -
though only I,
I see what it is that tear,
steal,
relieve
me of my inner-workings -
which I had once hated to love,
bittersweet…
without a pause for mercy.
 
And all the while it is to he and she that I still, naively plead -
… but nontheless
“that b*tch will be gone by morning”.
 
[For the uncensored poem: http://bleedingdemons.tumblr.com/post/39197291945/me-for-lack-of-a-better-word]
 
"Tea & Thorazine" by Andrew Bird’s Bowl of Fire
[http://bleedingdemons.tumblr.com/post/35760609590/morningbellbeeps-andrew-birds-bowl-of-fire]
 
&
 
"Under The Water" by The Pretty Reckles
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZsLvrBwPrA0]
 
I've nearly died many a time tonight.
 
I have half the mind to say goodbye, just to be fair.
Just so I haven't made anyone angry tomorrow.
 
But I'll be OK.
'Cause I'm Simba, after all.
Must be. Somebody I know said so.

I've only watched the first season, but I felt the need to pay the Merlin fandom their respects.
 
Even if said respect has wonky arms...
You see, there is a reason I don't attempt dolls. =P

Mrs. Cassandra Beedle, Deceased
Mr. James Beedle, 54, widower
Andrew-Jane Beedle, 30, married
Benjamin Beedle, 26
Sean Beedle, 22
Sheila Beedle, 19

I've a ton more details for each sibling to add - which I'll be doing shortly.

Merry Christmas.
 
I was going to finish this Christmas set - or scrap it and make a better one that didn't include items I've already used, but things sorta went to shit.
 
My thanks (whatever that's worth) goes out to those of you who have helped me last the year for this long. I owe you folks a good number of my days.

“I’ve developed a theory on how the primal self deals with tragedy.”
 
I've found a new ship whilst re-watching Dexter: The World's Only Consulting Detective VS. The World's Best Criminal
 
Me gusta.
Me gusta mucho.
 
-
 
"Let it be observed, that when a man has been stripped of the layers of tissue and bone that once hid his soul from view, evil may be found in abundance at his very core; a morbid fascination with destruction, and an unquenchable thirst for sin. Despite the efforts of empathetic parents and selfless guardians, it is an inevitable fact that all who speaks in the tongues of man, and all who act as humans do, will later succumb to our mortal imperfections. Though the minds of children are born innocent and supple, it takes little time for pain and knowledge to wrap each new generation in its death grip.
 
Therefore, no man is truly born a murderer, or a criminal – and yet, the dial of one’s moral compass may be bent with ease by the weight of an Earthly burden. The distinction between evil and righteousness depends, quite simply, on the stubbornness of a man, and the lengths to which the world is willing to go in order to break him."
 
[via http://bleedingdemons.tumblr.com/post/35620131813/the-effect]